will someone please just help me find my way? i don't know what the hell is up or down right now. i don't know what it is that i did that was so wrong but i am being punished for something. i find myself waiting for every thing that i hold near and dear to just up and walk out of my life as some form of punishment for something that i have done. i don't know what to think anymore and i find myself constantly shoving my feelings and needs aside to support people. it is part of being selfless i guess. it just causes me so many problems emotionally and mentally that i can't handle in combination with the problems i am having just trying to stay alive and have a roof over my head. i've always known that life was never going to be fair but hey, can't a girl get a break somewhere? all i have ever wanted my entire life is someone who loves me and to know that things are going to be ok, even if it is going to take some work and fixing up, but alas the end result would be good. that my friends is asking too much in this life. i now question whether all the pieces of me have been broken and crushed to the point where no one will ever be able to put them back together. i just wish that i knew that i wasn't going to be living on a street corner looking for scraps for my dog to eat. is there anything i can do to change the fact that everything about this life seems to hate me? deep down everyone in this universe wants to love and be loved in return. they want to know that they are taken care of emotionally and physically. i always knew asking anything of this life was asking too much...